Ambition

I don't want to change the world.

I just want a life that is quiet. A small house just cozy enough to be a home. A potted flower I can tend to every morning as the sun spills through my blinds in the morning.

Of course, I want to love my job, but more than that, I want to live a life worth loving. To spend my weekends laughing with my friends. To curl up on my couch with a blanket and read a book as the sun slowly sets outside. To sit on a balcony and listen to the quiet rain fall in the evening. I want to fall asleep next to a girl I love.

I don't want to be ambitious, why isn't it okay to just love something for its own sake.

I fear it is because I am lazy, because I am afraid of failure and I'm too scared to walk the road not taken.

Maybe I tell myself I want something simple so I don't have to risk always wanting something more. Maybe it's easier to stand at the fork in the road and dream of peace than to step into the unknown.